Living Lies


Have you ever met someone unhappy in their job who claims it's right for them? A few years down the road however, they quit and you hear how unappy they actually were?

I've noticed the same tendency in myself: as long as we are in a problematic situation and perhaps, see no way out, we convince ourselves that it's "not so bad" or even that it's right for us or that we are happy. We are only able afterwards, to admit to ourselves that it was terrible.

I'm trying to buy land and build a house. As long as I am battling the odds I convince myself it's the right thing for me. But I know myself well enough to recognize: if it all falls throug I will suddenly have a dozen reasons why it wasn't the right thing for me.

The lies we tell ourselves to get by...

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